I am not good at blogging :O

So! Needless to say I am not very good at blogging!! If anyone is wondering I never was any good at keeping a diary either! But I am going to start taking a different approach idea to blogging and that is I am going to think of it as a daily journal of encouragement. My daily journal of encouragement is going to have one of two focuses:

1. To encourage others 
2. If I can't think of something that day to encourage others I would think of a way to try to encourage myself? 

I have to say that starting a facebook page, blog and YouTube channel has definitely been challenging! I have unexpected results and emotions that I had no idea would come up. I have had complete strangers message me notes of encouragement - which I found incredibly awesome!! But then I have had where people who were extended relatives and who I thought were friends not bother to even get back to messages. I have had people even bully about the way I am approaching my situation. Stating that I am just complaining instead of being happy that I am not 'worse off', or I am not 'being positive enough'. I have heard all kinds of stuff!! 

Today is Thursday, which I teach a few lessons and have church tonight. Hopefully this week I don't have any crazy mix ups! Last week I had forgotten my glasses (which it's really a mind thing by now, because I have the songs memorized but cannot play without my glasses). So we ended up singing a Capella. I love teaching music! It can be incredibly challenging teaching music blind, but I can do it. I am actually planning a YouTube video about it which I am hoping to remember to share to my page. 

Anyways, today is just an ordinary day, which these days are very much enjoyed! 

If you have not yet come across my YouTube channel here is the link to my playlist so far :)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ghFWHHMNVno&list=PLUcfPcdnELCL9aeI9fIHmsGPXNKN1x5lt

I tried to snap a pic of my day teaching (no students in pic because of privacy) 

Uhhh........filming for a YouTube video

You know when you want to get something done and you get alot of encouragement from people to get it done. But then when you go to do it you get stumped? That's what's going on with me and my YouTube videos - I have my channel all set up and ready to go, but I seem to get hung up with the little details. I want my hair to look nice, wear make-up or don't wear make-up, should I film in my bedroom, outside or another location. Can I really be me or do I need to be a little more formal?
 And then you have the thoughts.....
1. If I post a video on YouTube it will be public and everyone can see it:
2. I already get people that are rude or ignorant to me - what will the people be like in YouTubia
3. Will posting videos affect my future negatively
Well, before I penned the thoughts it felt like there were alot more haha

Tomorrow (August 30,2018) I will be getting a phone call for the interview with the Guide Dogs for the Blind. I honestly have no idea what to expect and that makes me a little anxious.
Not really sure that this amount of boredom is even worth a blog post, but here it is folks!! Good day and good night! :)