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Day 577: Dear Depleted Diary - Don't incriminate yourself!

 New Series on Disney+ 

I don't love everything behind Disney, as I felt that they always kept their entertainment on the edge. Introducing children to weird concepts and such. BUT! I do enjoy family/children's musicals and Disney seems to have the lead on that. 

I don't know if you know this, but Disney has Descriptive audio for almost all their films and shows, so I don't get left out and I love it! There is this new murder mystery I just started, I am really hoping they keep it clean and family friendly. But it's called Only Murders in the Building. I am only on the first episode, but it's already intriguing with slight humor. So far it's enjoyable. 

Online exams: 

I have an online exam today. SO I have been studying and stressing my brain out haha. 

Projects finished: 

So I finished two scarves, which were knitted. One in bright orange and another in like a teal/peacock bluish-green color. I had left over yarn from different projects and combining them to make a child's crayon inspired poncho. I make tons of stuff. I just wish I was as successful at selling it! 

Day 576: Dear __________ Diary:

I need a Title! 

Dear departed diary: - Wait! Scratch that, it sounds like I am writing a bereavement diary. 

Dear delayed diary: - no that doesn't sound right either, now it sounds like my life is on hold (kinda is, but I don't want to admit it). 

Dear depleted diary: Yep, that'll work! 

Now that I have my cryptic countdown and blogging diary started, what do I even write about? My life feels like an endless empty cycle of: woke up, ate (sometimes didn't eat), cried multiple times in the day, slept and repeat. 

So! Last night I found out some encouraging news about investing through and within a TSFA account. For those who want to judge me, I live on disability in Ontario. NO! IT'S NOT THE SAME AS WELFARE! You actually get much less, and if you try to get a part time job, you end up being penalized as you lose not only your health trying to work (when you have been clearly identified by a DR AND A BOARD of physicians that you shouldn't be working for health reasons), but you also lose a lot of benefits. 

So what is someone supposed to do? I don't want to be on disability the rest of my life. I want a job, an income and to live my life like everyone else. Normally, if you invest in regular accounts, you get taxed BUT also disability holds the rights to penalize or take your investment income. But I found out last night, that if a Canadian does it within their TSFA account, ODSP cannot touch it as long as it stays under $40,000 (LOL that's pretty easy, as I don't have large enough sums right now to have huge investment dividends). 

For those of you that are wondering how I sound this smart - well... I have been studying investing for the last 6 years and real estate for the last 3 years. My hands have been tied this whole time to be able to make any kind of income of investments. But I am hoping this will change! 

Cryptic Countdown - Your Canadian Blind Girl

 Someone once told me to use blogging like a diary. At the time, I really didn't want to because I was scared to share things with others. But more and more lately, I have not wanted to go in front of a camera because I have just been struggling so much with all the stress and craziness that seems to surround my life. But I feel confident to do that now, because no one reads my blogs and they only follow my YouTube channel. 

For those of you who didn't know, I also use Facebook. For the longest time, that's what I kept in touch with my friends with. But as time goes on, there isn't a ton of messages that go back and forth anymore. People's lives are moving forward while mine seems to always be getting stuck along the way. Everyone wants to congratulate on the inspiring stuff (by the way - that's also called inspiration p*rn - when people only want to be inspired and not hear the knitty gritty you have to go through just to survive). 

On Facebook, I feel like sharing my cryptic countdown of waiting on being together with my husband again, is driving some people away. I feel like they think I am complaining. I'm not trying to complain, just trying to motivate myself to move forward. So, that's where I am going to be doing the Cryptic Countdown on here. No one reads this blog anyways, so I guess it's ok. 

Today is August 29, 2021. It's been 575 days = 1 year, 6 months, 28 days. Today is Sunday, what I miss the most is my husband sitting with me at church. He was always either holding my hand, or had his arm around me. At first when we were together, I was often annoyed by the constant contact, but it's funny how you can get used to something and even miss it when it's no longer there. Currently my emotion is frustration and desperation. I am frustrated with us being apart so long and my current living situation. I am also desperate for things to change. And to change quickly. 

Wow! I just sound so cynical and depressive - no wonder people don't want to read this stuff! 😂 I started a housing fund, (it literally will take me 65 years to be able to come up with a downpayment on my own - no I'm not exaggerating, that's the accurate math). But at the same time, I feel excited and encouraged when even just $5 is added. I feel like, at least I am doing SOMETHING to control and help my future. 

I really want to start my own handmade business where I can sell my crocheted and knitted stuff, but also the patterns I have created myself. I know that there is Etsy, but I get super stressed to even start because I just feel like I am not organized or professional enough. I don't know, eventually something has to work out right?

Kookaburras, Emus, Goats and More at Turda Farms! Your Canadian Blind Girl

Turda farms was so much fun. This video is outdated and I apologize for that! This was filmed like 2 years ago, before I even left to go to the Philippines to get married. But I hope you enjoy it. I had a great time the last time I went, and I was treated really well! 

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